Buh-Bye fatty.....

So lately, I've been angry. Life has been really making me mad. And depressed. I feel like I'm completely unsatisfied with every avenue. I've wanted to blog more and I've gotten so much busier that it seems almost impossible for me to get that accomplished and I have to take my opportunities as they come. I'm fat. I'm completely unhappy with my body. I also feel that because of these things it has taken a toll on my relationships. I just find lately that I'm irritated with everyone, but more especially Shane. This is not how it should be. I used to have this ides that once you're married, you should have this absolute connection with your spouse. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband very dearly and when he goes away I miss him when he's gone. So to add to it all this is making me sad and feel ever so slightly that I'm losing my mind. So I've decided to say goodbye to some things this weekend and honestly, I'm starting to perk up and feel better about what I've decided to let go of. First, I wanna say buh-bye to negativity. You have done nothing but make me depressed and bring me down constantly. Now I wanna say buh-bye to anger, you have made people who I hold near and dear to my heart hurt and feel strife/grief. It's not right to hurt and disrespect those we love and care about. Next I wanna say buh-bye to stress. You have done nothing but made me irritable. From now on I will leave the worry where it belongs, for another day. Will it affect me in 5 yrs? If the answer is no, it can be left alone. Finally, I want to end my goodbyes to my former before self. I will never call you fat because you were comfortable in your own skin, but now it is time for change to get to where you wanna be. Sometimes even if we're comfortable, in order to get to our next life phase, we need to get uncomfortable... So farewell to all my old security blankets, may you all rest in peace. And finally, I will say hello to my future because now, it only looks bright and blessed.... Have a blessed day.

Freedom doesn't come freely.....

and yet, everyone seems to think it does. I'm not immune from this thought from time to time, but I do appreciate from the bottom of my heart, everything our service men and women do for this country so that we are able to speak and do things freely. I often wonder do extremist groups like the westboro baptist church realize that when they protest soldiers' funerals. It makes me sad and angry at the same time that people can be so disrespectful. It just makes me wonder how a country that was founded on their belief that everyone should be able to worship the way they see fit without persecution. And with the way this country has developed with so many hate groups of this and that, groups who hate the government, groups who hate other religions because it's not the "right" religion. What the hell does all that mean? Who gave anyone the right to judge simply because it's not your way? As the quote goes, "turnabout is fair play." But enough of my tirade on the inequities of the human race, this 4th of July let's for one simple day, or even moment that it was because of people tiring of a monarchy and troops who vowed to protect this country from enemies, both foreign and domestic, that we're able to fire up our grills, light fireworks, partake in adult beverages, relish in quality time with loved ones, family, and friends. Have a blessed day and a very safe 4th of july weekend!