So, Tue, my father had a yearly cancer checkup and it was discovered that he had an 8 mm mass on his lung. So as it stands right now, the doctors aren't sure what it is, so they are going to figure it out. I hope it's soon.... This brings me to my next point, life.... Since next week is Thanksgiving I decided to post what I am thankful for during this seemingly depressive time. I am thankful for supportive friends, and my spouse. For if it weren't for them, I don't know how I would function from day to day.... Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday from the smells to the family and sights..... But I think this year I will definitely thoroughly enjoy every minute of the holidays this year even more, well at least until we find out whether my father will be around for when I have my own children. See everything, my moving plans when, baby plans, etc is dependent on the findings of my father's mass. See, Shane and I are wanting to get pregnant next year, in order to do this I want to lose weight because I want to have a healthy pregnancy. However, if it turns out to be that the cancer is back and it turns out to be metastatic then unfortunately, on all sides of the issue, yours truly will be staying put until the bitter end. This will further separate my family even further. What makes this so interesting and such a heavier weight on my heart is because I read cards you see, and my cards predicted a death of a family member by next spring.... I never did a further reading to see who it was referring, mainly because I didn't want to know. But I'm guessing we shall see by spring if they were right. I know cards are supposed to be a guide, but, every now and then there will be a direct prediction and it's very rare that my readings have been wrong. However, despite all this darkness, fall and winter are passages of death and endings. With spring comes new life and birth.... This Thanksgiving when you sit and enjoy your feasts relish the quality time with treasured friends and family, for it may be the last time you get that. Happy Thanksgiving, may you count your blessings and stuff yourself silly!
